Bitterness
When I experienced the perceived injustice in my life I began to pray for God to judge the individual that had “wronged” me. I hope that you are more spiritual than I was, but I went so far as to suggest to God what He could do to punish the offender.
I look back on this with shame; I was almost like David in his imprecatory Psalms, though operating in the flesh. I did not want God to forgive the offender; I wanted justice for myself. I was proud and wanted God to reinforce that I was right. The biggest problem with this is that when you despise God’s forgiveness for someone else, you mar your own forgiveness from God. Matthew 6:15 says, “But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.”
I place myself under the judgment of God, which means that I have no right to bring my petitions to the throne of God. Psalm 66:18 says, “If I regard iniquity in my heart, the Lord will not hear me”. You need to understand that when you are in bitterness, you have cut off your line of communication with God.
It is also important to know that God says in Romans 13 that vengeance belongs to Him alone.
As long as you stand in front of the offender ordering God to judge them, God most likely will not. You hinder God from dealing with them because of your own pride. What a shame that our insistence on being right can hinder the work of God and bring sin into our own life.
